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Thursday, August 19, 2004

I now know why he did what he did

Friday, August 13, 2004

good news and bad news

the good news is i almost died in a auto accdient today
the bad news i said almost

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

end of slutty

well i am going on vacation in about 5 hours and by the time i get back to wisconsin slutty will have moved to madison. i'm dissapointed in the fact that i am loosing a sex toy for the most part i suppose its for the best in that the chances of me getting an std is now 0. But since beth has been out of the picture for along time and now slutty is gone I wish i knew where to go, all of you people dont to be occupied with such issues (Esp the female ones) none of you are in this position, and few can understand where i am coming from. And dispite what you all want to think i'm not just looking for a quick fuck- given i was with slutty for that end but at least it made me feel like i was with someone. Given i have friends that hate me less then my enemies but at the same time its impossible to give and recieve affection from people who are ether A. already with someone B. have no interst in being with me C. are male (the vast majority of you) or any combonations of the above. I just hope i can get through this period of my life with out killing myself or at least not sustaining a long term injury like sliting my wrists, having someone find me and being a vegitable but if that ever happes i beg someone to pull the plug or shoot me or somthing. I'm not depressed at this particular moment but you d have to be a complete moron to think that i will stay this way- remember what Voltar said about optamism "Optamism is that notorious belief that everything is right when it is actually wrong". Hopefully this vacation will take my mind off everything and i can actually relax....HA (yes that is sarcasm).

Sunday, August 08, 2004

3 questions

I have been doing alot of soul searching and i need help answering these three questions:
1. When traveling at a subsonic speed during the last hour of hyperspace which vector of the romulin nebula will suffer the wrath of th inpenratable quicknening.
2. How many raths to the nearest molton?
3. Why is anything anything?
These are real questions and if you can give an answer thats not redundancy.

Sunday, August 01, 2004

outside realms

Ok this post has nothing to do about anything for the most part. I got to thinking that when i kill myself i wouldlike to have some record of my philosophical thinkings down somewhere and this is one of them. Ok I saw the village and it brought striking resemblances to the matrix (or at least the orignal (nonreleased) version) If you have a desier to see how the movie ends read no further. This girl basically is percieved to be living in 19th centuary America, however her true love is stabbed and the only chance of her survivial is to acquire medicine from another town: problem the town they live in is surrounded by woods and in the woods is things that will kill them if they enter it. However we learn this is mearly a control by the town elders (the monsters that is) so a blind woman (knowing this) is sent to gather medical supplies from town. The illusion goes even deeper as we discover that rather then 1897 the year is 1997 and the enter town is an attempt at a eutopiea. My thought is this with the matrix and this new film is there somthing trying to tell us there is somthing outside of our realm of vision, and if so how do we get "outside the rabbit hole" so to speak. The movies would not lead us to beleave death is the means of escaping, however they do not give any clues as to how to get out of our existance. Some day I hope to discover this world as we know it is an illusion and in time we will see the true world for what it is....damn i thought it was going to be more philosophical well i suppose after the 4th white russian and 2nd blue bawls things become distorted.